Tuesday, 22 January 2013

Friendships, Continued.

After posting THIS a couple of months ago I was talking about the same topic with my pastor and was reassured that it’s not just me who can’t get past surface deep friendships most of the time. The way he sees it, most people in our modern society have this problem but either aren’t aware of it, or don’t even consider it to be a problem. And that makes sense, I suppose, because if quite a lot of people genuinely aren’t bothered by shallow friendships it would explain why there are so many of them around. And the reverse is true too, in that, if everyone was just seeking deeply fulfilling friendships I don’t think there’d be many shallow ones around.
That’s not to say that the people content with just shallow friendships are wrong, and need to change necessarily, it’s just that I have a different set of values from such people.
Anyway, my pastor went on to say that he felt I should indeed be putting down roots here, so I’ve decided to give it a go and it *seems* to be going okay so far.
Almost as soon as I finished praying about getting more connected in fellowship with my church, whatever invisible barrier there was between me and the rest of the congregation, feeding my social awkwardness, appears to have been lifted and that’s really great. I am thankful to God for the closeness I now feel, we’ll just see how the rest of root development goes… 

Sunday, 20 January 2013

Looking Back on 2012

As I’ve said elsewhere on this blog, I started 2012 being challenged about standing firm in my faith and, again, I’ve admitted elsewhere that I went on to stuff up quite spectacularly.
When I failed to stand firm I assumed that God’s efforts to teach me about being resolute had gone to waste but I really should have known better.
I don’t know how many times I’ve heard about God’s ability to teach us more through weakness than strength, or about the joy He has in taking bad situations and bringing good from them, and yet I forgot about all this at the time, because I was so caught up in focusing on my mistakes that I lost sight of who God is, how He works, and how He loves. I am very thankful - so so so so thankful – that God has given me a second chance to refocus my [spiritual] eyes on these things.
It’s only recently that He has shown me that I did indeed learn a lot about standing firm last year, despite my sin, because God didn’t give up on teaching me.
His word says he teaches and corrects the ones he loves, and to that, all I can say is: Hallelujah.

God has not left me, and I continue to pray that I’ll never be so stupid as to leave Him again.